Well here we go again!! I feel like sometimes I am a broken record saying this. It's been exactly 4 months since I've blogged - and honestly I haven't blogged because I basically jumped ship on my weight loss journey.
Thankfully, jumping ship didn't mean I eat house and home. I just stopped concentrating on my freedom from this issue I have with food all together. I got comfortable. I lost 30 pounds and people were telling me I looked great - and I guess I just got to a place where comfort was easier than continuing on this journey.
I have learned a few things tho along the way:
1. I really feel free from the issue of food controlling me. I haven't binged ate in a long time. And when I want to eat for the sake of eating I am making healthier choices.
2. I've missed walking. I got into a nice routine and for some reason I just stopped. I'm sure at the time there was a great excuse of why I needed to stop - but for the life of me I cannot remember what it was. Note to self: ask yourself BEFORE quitting if I will remember why in 30 days!!
So yesterday I weighed in in WW. I told about 20 people the day before - because I knew I'd talk myself out of going - I was fearful of the results!! Those people I told I knew would hold me accountable and ask me if I actually went. So I went - and I was happy with the results. Honestly it proved to me that what I said before is true - food doesn't control me as it did previously. I did gain - but in 4 months I gained only 10lbs back of the 30 I lost. I'm thankful I am back before I gained it all back, before the pain started to come back in my knees, hips, back (none of which have). I went to a new meeting. I'm not sure why, but I did. So my new meeting time is Wednesday Mornings at 9:30am. There was another lady who was brand new to the group yesterday - she seemed nice. I hope she comes back next week!!
So this is my question of the day!! Why did I stop before? I know what my end goal is, so why did comfort become my excuse. What is stopping me from finishing this race? I don't have an answer today - but I am hoping that I can finally figure it out. I am in a new bible study - its called Breaking Free - by Beth Moore. My goal with this study is to figure out what is holding me back from finishing this race!! I get started then I stop!! Why?!?! Beth Moore spoke in a video of how captivity works that really stuck with me:
Whatever the issue is that is holding you captive is
HARD - then gets HARDER - then gets EASIER - then its FINALLY UNDER YOUR FEET (FREEDOM).
I feel like I am in the "easier" (not easy.. easier) faze and honestly I want to get to the under my feet/FREEDOM part of this journey. I just have to figure out what that looks like and how to get there.
Here we go [Again]!! Onward to Freedom!!
Blessings INDEED,
Debbie
